It was a question that hit my heart yesterday as I listened to the sermon. She (sorry I don’t know her name, it was my second time to this church) used the example of Ruth and Naomi and how Ruth was willing to follow Naomi and as a result, she became a part of Jesus’ family tree. She became a part of God’s unfolding story.
She also walked into the unknown, leaving behind all that she did know, her mother, father and land and what is amazing is that she was sure that her place was beside Naomi and to follow her God.
Now, the reason I am so amazed about this, is because the day before, I had prayed before meeting up with my future mother-in-law and the story of Naomi and Ruth came to my mind and I prayed about our relationship. Adding to this, is the fact that my mother-in-law and I were meeting up to join a group that spun and weaved, a skill that we were both wanting to learn. As I sat in the pew, one in a large congregation I felt like God was speaking directly to me.
But it was the question of whether we are willing to be weaved by God into his story that struck me. I found myself wondering whether if in fact I had been willing at all. I thought I was but again, I felt that my heart was resisting what God wants to do in my life, holding onto what was and not lifting my eyes to see the new, not allowing myself to be led by Him and to fully stand on his promise.
At the end of the sermon, she (the preacher) asked those who needed to prayer to come forward, I had to go up. A lovely lady prayed over me and she felt God say that He wants to surprise me. One thing I have learned is that life with Jesus is not boring, so I am waiting on my surprise. Clinging on to that God is faithful and again in this new place and phase in my life and for the first time in a long time, I feel relaxed.
I don’t know what God has in store for me but I can trust that He is weaving my life into His wonderful tapestry.
I cannot see the whole picture, but He does and as I learn this new skill of spinning and weaving wool and learning to make beautiful things, I feel like I am going in the right direction. Being creative is something I treasure and I now have some time to do just that, both my boys are now in school and I have found that there are some hours during the day that need to be filled, but not solely with cleaning and laundry. I need to buy a drop spindle and really get going, but at this moment, I am thankful that I am in the hands of the One who knows all my days and how it will look like at the end.